Sunday, March 18, 2007

No Idea Where I am Going

The painting I have chosen is "Lifeline" by American Artist Winslow Homer, Right now I need a lifeline.

MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think that I am following your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always
though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

- Thomas Merton, "Thoughts in Solitude"
I hope I am going in the right direction, I was sniffing the air and following the Holy fragrance.
Hoping that the wind blowing and gusting was not throwing off the chase to press hard after your Divine Presence. Then the storm. That things are not going well is not an indication that I have left Your path. Even though the boat has capsized I am lashed by the rope of your grace to the over turned hull. What started out as an idyllic Gilligan three hour tour has become a season of Survivor episodes. My heart beats like an echo location device, ping, ping, ping, Lord, you can find my location in this maelstrom. Drift me on the rolling waves to the safety of the port in the storm.